EXCERPT:
It
was only the beginning of the dream; Cassandra Beaumont knew that
as well as she knew she lived and breathed.
The waiting was
over, the votes counted, and after an endless night of flash bulbs,
cheers, and infinite handshakes, at least they were going home.
The world outside
was gray and wet, a thin November drizzle heralding the expanse
of dawn on the horizon. Drooping with exhaustion, Cassandra dimly
heard Robert decline a waiting limousine. Someone, a polite stranger
with no face, helped her into the passenger seat of their Mercedes.
Her husband hummed
as he pulled away from the building. The wheels squealed on the
wet pavement.
“Landslide!”
He hit the steering wheel with the palm of his hand and laughed
out loud in satisfaction. “I knew I’d win, but a damned
landslide?”
“The youngest
man ever to be elected senator in the history of Illinois. It’s
wonderful.” She leaned her head back against the seat and
shut her eyes. “God, I’m so tired.”
“Tired?
How the hell can you be tired, Cassie? I won.”
Lifting her lashes
and glancing over, she stared at his profile, seeing the faint smile
on his mouth. His stand on abortion and plans to reform the state
budgeting structure aside, she couldn’t help but wonder how
many of the female voters had been swayed by his looks and name,
that image so carefully created and exploited by the press. He fairly
exuded the infamous Beaumont charm, even at five in the morning.
The trace of a daybreak beard only lent a certain dash to his lean
face, his dark hair was rumpled attractively, and he’d discarded
his jacket and tie, his shirt open to show off a muscular upper
chest and strong neck.
They’d
been married for five years and she still thought he was one of
the most handsome men she had ever seen.
The tires whined
as they gained the beltline and changed lanes. The rain pelting
the windshield had changed over to ice, pinging against the glass
with audible rhythm. Even the inside of the car smelled stale and
dank with the dying autumn.
Not wanting to
disrupt his jubilant mood, she still couldn’t help but murmur,
“You’re driving awfully fast.”
Robert looked
amused. “Darling, I always drive fast and there is virtually
no traffic at this time of morning.”
“Yes, but—”
“Just relax.
Can you imagine how Morris is feeling right now? For an incumbent,
he sure got handed his ass.”
“Robert,
please, I know you’re excited, but you’re going nearly
eighty.”
The words stuck
in her throat as at that very moment she heard something crack and
the vehicle lurch sideways in a sickening wave of motion. Suddenly
the world was a melee of swirling colors and screaming metal.
Robert cursed,
wrestling with the wheel.
They hit the
guardrail hard, slamming her forward against her seatbelt. Losing
her breath, she dizzily realized with panic that the ragdoll sensation
she felt meant they’d gone over the side of the road.
“No,”
she screamed in silent terror.
Chapter 1
Her shaky return
to the world was filled as always with gray edges and inner ghosts.
At the moment,
she wouldn’t mind never sleeping again.
Cassandra Beaumont
rolled over and pushed the damp hair from her forehead, still trembling
in the aftermath. Her heart pounded, sending the blood roaring in
her ears. Her nightgown was soaked with cold sweat. Blinking up
at the ceiling, she let her breath out very slowly. Control. She
needed complete control.
The room was
dark but cool. Large, familiar, with the armoire in the corner and
the long windows she loved across from the bed so she could look
out into the garden in the summer. The air-conditioning hummed in
low seductive song. She gazed upward at where the oblong pattern
of relief from the security lights penetrated the curtains and touched
the ceiling of her bedroom.
Everything was normal. Quiet. The alarm hadn’t sounded.
It was just another
damned nightmare. Her subconscious worked overtime lately and she
was sick of it.
“Mummy?”
“Tim.”
She came to a sitting position so swiftly that the room whirled
for a moment. Her hands flew backwards to support her body. The
bottom sheet was damp to the touch. “Go back to bed.”
A pair of solemn,
dark blue eyes gazed at her from the doorway. “You yelled.
I woke up.”
“I’m
sorry.” Swallowing hard, she tried to smile but her lips felt
as stiff as dried leather.
“That’s
okay.” It was forlorn forgiveness.
Framed by the
darkened doorway, her son was light and shadow, his curly dark hair
sticking up in tufts, his precious blanket clutched in his arms.
Wearing cartoon pajamas and red socks, he looked so very...very
young.
And so very much
like his father.
“I’m
fine. I just had a bad dream.” She wiped her damp hands on
the blankets in a self-conscious gesture. Her legs were still trembling
in betraying little convulsions. “Do you want me to take you
back to your room?”
“No.”
His stocking feet shuffled against the carpet. “Can’t
I sleep with you?”
She should have
known he would ask. It was the same battle every night, over and
over. Ever since the accident he’d been very dependent, rather
unlike the forthright young child he’d been before.
How she hated
it. The difference was pronounced and a little frightening—actually,
a lot frightening.
“We’ve
discussed this, honey. You need to be a big boy and sleep in your
own room.” Flinging back the covers and throwing her wobbly
legs over the side, she swung out of bed. She crossed the room to
pick him up, his body small and firm in her arms. His little arms
went around her neck and he sniffled slightly against her skin and
clung to her.
God, she loved
this precious human being. It was almost as frightening as her dreams
how much she loved him.
Throat tight,
she said, “Timmy, you know everything is okay, right?”
She pressed her face against his silky hair and smelled baby shampoo
mingled with his special childish scent.
A sob shook him
slightly. “Yes.”
“I’m
here.”
“Mummy,
I know. But...Daddy isn’t.”
No, she thought
with as much emotional detachment as possible, he isn’t. Very
gently, she promised, “You and I are going to be great on
our own, sweetheart.”
* * * *
To him, the show
was a complete fiasco.
Michael moved
like a shadow through the elite crowd, feeling rather like an automaton,
a smile plastered on his face. His jeans and denim shirt were well-worn,
a contrast to everyone around him, but long ago he’d had his
fill of formal wear and stuffy affairs. The long gowns and tuxedoes
made his casual appearance conspicuous, but that was the point,
wasn’t it? Drinking bad champagne from a long fluted glass,
it was all he could do to look anything other than bored with the
whole social thing. He’d even signed a few autographs with
reluctance, always feeling like a sham.
A great artist?
He certainly
didn’t feel like one.
Oh yes, his paintings
sold in record numbers. It was...amazing. But he felt somehow cheated
and maybe a little Hollywood cheap. Damn all, he thought darkly
and emptied his glass as he saw a portly man detach himself from
a group of over-dressed, over-weight ladies. He was Hollywood cheap.
The director
of the gallery smiled like he’d just eaten a pound of the
finest caviar. Drifting close, he murmured, “A success, Michael.
Congratulations.”
Standing in an
alcove where he could watch the flow of people, Michael murmured,
“The turn-out is much bigger than I expected.”
“Oh, no.
I was sure this display would draw quite a number.”
“Interested
in my work?” The delicate question was as much a challenge
as anything. The evening grated on the good manners that had been
pounded into him since he could toddle across the floor. He felt
a little like strangling someone. Mr. Alcott, as it happened, was
at the top of the list of potential victims. Michael hadn’t
wanted this at all.
Trevor Alcott
had the grace to turn the slightest bit red. “I...yes, of
course.”
“Not my
family and the illustrious Beaumont name? That full-page ad in the
paper looked more like a political banner than an invitation to
an art showing. Why didn’t you tell me you were going to do
it? This is New York, half the world probably saw it.”
Alcott’s
eyes widened slightly in the folds of skin under his heavy gray
brows. “You are a Beaumont. That doesn’t hurt, Michael,
you know that. Whatever gets your work out there so it can be seen
helps. Having a famous name is in your favor.”
“I am sure
you feel that way, I’m just not sure I do.” Michael
did his best to not snarl out the words.
Obviously stung,
the man said, “I am in the business of promoting artists and
their creations. Selling their pieces. That is what I’m doing.
Here. For you.”
“I want
people to enjoy what they see. To purchase a painting that will
grace their home and enlighten their life, not just to have them
buy something, even if they think it sucks, just because my last
name is in the corner.”
“I am giving
you great exposure.” The protest was more of a bluster.
Michael lifted
a brow and smiled coldly. “Using all means possible, is that
it?”
Above the perfectly
immaculate collar of his white shirt, the director’s plump
mouth tightened. “Yes, that is it. You won’t object
when I hand you the check from tonight’s proceeds.”
Michael could
easily point out that that logic was extremely flawed, since the
very name that Alcott had hung the bank on was the one that ensured
Michael did not have to do anything as pedestrian as worry about
making a living at painting, or anything else for that matter.
He was a goddamned
Beaumont.
Lucky him.
“I’m
absolutely starved. Are we nearly done?” A slim arm slipped
through Michael’s and a hand came up to suggestively caress
his shoulder. The interruption might have been welcome except when
he turned his head, he looked into a pair of sea-green eyes that
owed nothing to genetics and everything to colored contacts. He
could even see the little rings around the irises. The woman clinging
to his arm exhaled a delicate blast of gin across his face. “Darling,
I think I’m in the mood for Thai.”
He said shortly,
“I didn’t think you ate real food. At least you never
have in my presence.”
“I’m
off my diet, just for tonight.”
“Well,
sorry, we’re not done.”
“How soon?”
A pout pulled full lips into a bow.
Mr. Alcott, both
tactful and relieved, took that moment to drift off—maybe
not drift. He was moving at a pretty fast pace. With reluctant amusement,
Michael watched the man fade into the crowd and then replied, “Darling
Tiffany, I have no idea. An artist is supposed to be available for
his adoring public.”
“Adoring
public?” The vacant aqua eyes widened. “What do you
mean? Like...groupies?”
Lord, help him.
Groupies? Michael said gently, “I’m joking, of course.”
“Oh.”
A troubled frown briefly crossed Tiffany’s lovely face. Blond,
leggy, and as absent of intellect as she was full of bodily charms,
she looked very nice on his arm...but at that point the attraction
was over. He’d found that out after the first date. After
the first five minutes of the first date. Why she’d shown
up here was a mystery to him. She certainly had no interest in paintings,
his or anyone else’s. But in her very short, very tight designer
black dress, there were plenty of interested eyes on her.
He suggested,
“As far as I’m concerned, you can leave and grab a bite
any time.”
“Without
you?” She actually batted her lashes at him. It was a maneuver
he’d never seen done before, except maybe in cartoons.
He wanted to
laugh out loud. “I don’t think you need me. Half the
men in this room are staring at you with their tongues hanging out.
Just pick one.”
“Oh, Michael,”
she hit his arm playfully, “stop it. You’re so funny.”
Hilarious. Yeah,
that was him. He needed to get rid of Tiffany before he moved her
to the top of his need to strangle list.
“Odd, I
wasn’t trying to be. Here,” he put one hand on the small
of her back, guiding her toward a corner, “let me introduce
you to a friend of mine. I think you two might get along.”
* * * *
Cassandra looked
at the number displayed on her caller ID box and sank slowly into
a chair. Had she not already been sweating, she would be now. Her
throat seemed oddly clogged as she tried to swallow. Her hands began
to shake.
She was calling.
Again.
The number was
displayed in bold print, undeniable and nerve-shatteringly real.
What was she
going to do?
The phone pealed,
insisting she do something.
No.
With an unsteady
hand, she reached out and grasped the receiver, slowly bringing
it to her ear. “Hello.”
“Mrs. Beaumont,
you’ve been out.” The whisper was eerie, sibilant, deliberately
unrecognizable.
“How do
you know that?”
“I know
a lot of things.”
“I...I
just went to play tennis with a friend.” Good God, was this
maniac watching her all the time? Her heartbeat kicked up another
notch.
“Of course.”
The caller gave a hoarse laugh. “That’s what all good
rich little wives do, isn’t it—tennis at the club, lunch
with the girls, our nails done at three and a massage somewhere
in between? What’s it like, princess?”
“What do
you want?” Cassandra hated her raspy voice for the betraying
vehicle it was.
“The world
hasn’t forgotten you yet, have they?”
Forgotten her.
Oh God, she so wanted to be forgotten.
She drew a breath.
“I want you to stop calling me. The police know all about
this. They...they can trace this, find you.”
“Let them.
That would be just too bad for you, wouldn’t it? Everyone
would know.”
“Know what?”
“Our guilty
little secret. Now, now,” soft, silky admonishment drifted
down the line, “you know what I want.”
“Money.”
“Sure.
I want money. Or else I’ll publish those pictures and spill
my guts all over the tabloids.”
The phone was
slick and wet in her sweating hand. Swallowing hard, she said, “Robert
is dead, I—”
“Sweetheart,
don’t try to sell me some load of crap about how you don’t
have it. He left you a fortune, no question about it. I just want
a little cut and I’ll keep my mouth shut.”
God. Cassandra
shut her eyes. “How much?”
“Fifty
grand.”
Relief was definitely
a relative term. Expecting a much larger amount, she waited a fraction
of a moment before saying, “If I agree, how should I get it
to you?”
“Oh, honey,
I’ll be in touch, don’t worry. Get the money, keep it
with you, and I’ll let you know when and where to drop it.”
But she would
worry. And she knew very well that blackmailers bled their victims
dry. Desperately, Cassandra fought to make her voice firm. “This
is the last time. I’m not going to be strung along and I want
those pictures, free and clear.”
A laugh. The
line went dead.
Dammit, Cassandra
thought wearily, slowly replacing the receiver. Cradling her head
in her hands, she tried to still the tremors in her body.
The phone began
to ring again.
Lifting her head
with quivering dread, she looked at the display box. The number
there was almost as unsettling as her unwanted last caller. This,
now, was the very last thing she needed. There were tears on her
lashes and she blinked hard. Taking a deep breath, she picked up
the phone. “Marie?”
A soft feminine
voice spoke, the overtones modulated and smoothly pleasant. “Cassandra,
how convenient modern society is, telling a person who is on the
other line. I guess I should be grateful you didn’t decline
to answer my call.”
Her mind felt
blank, numb. “Of course not.”
“Don’t
say that, my dear. We haven’t seen Timmy but a few times in
the past six months. It isn’t right. I feel something is wrong,
that your neglect is deliberate. I wouldn’t want any unpleasantness
between us over this issue.”
Unpleasantness.
Still dressed in her sweat-stained clothes, slumped in the chair
by the window overlooking the park, Cassandra managed to murmur,
“I know it has been a while since you’ve seen him, but
I thought we needed some time together, just he and I. He is still...adjusting.
I’m trying, he’s been to a therapist, but it upsets
him, so I’ve just tried to be here for him.”
Silence.
When her mother-in-law
spoke again, it was in a brusque tone. “Well, this will be
perfect then. Timothy sounds like he needs his family, and that
does include us, dear. We’re going up to Thirty Birches in
a few days. I’m planning a party for Gerald’s birthday.
We’d like you two to come. It will be a relaxed occasion,
Anne and Stan are going to be there, Michael is invited, and the
two of you.”
Michael? Things
were going from awful to unbearable at a fast clip. Her chest felt
tight with tension. And she didn’t imagine for a minute it
would be just a family occasion. She’d learned a long time
ago that with an invitation like this one, there was usually an
agenda of some kind.
Biting her lip,
Cassandra raced for an excuse. “I don’t know...the antique
shop has been very busy—”
“Then just
send Timmy. I hate to put it this bluntly, my dear, but we have
rights.” Her mother-in-law’s voice was very cool, very
precise. The tone implied politely that there were a pack of lawyers
employed by the Beaumonts that would ensure those rights were thoroughly
honored.
You’d like
that, wouldn’t you? Cassandra thought darkly. Having my son
all to yourself without me. Fat chance.
She murmured,
“Actually, I think I can get away. When exactly shall we meet
you there?”
If Marie Beaumont
was disappointed or triumphant, she didn’t show it with her
usual elegant and formidable self-possession. She said, “Three
days from now—on the tenth. We’ll expect you, my dear.”
“Great.”
Sweat trickled slowly down her back as she hung up the phone. She
felt chilled, even though she was sweating on a summer day in Chicago.
Michael aside,
she tried to chide herself; maybe she was looking at this the wrong
way.
If she left town, she’d be out of touch, away from unwanted
contacts and threatening phone calls. Thirty Birches was like an
elegant fortress, the closest thing to a castle that she could think
of in this country. A summer home built in the grand old style and
stuck up high on the upper peninsula of Michigan, she couldn’t
think of any place more remote or more inaccessible.
Maybe this invitation was actually a Godsend.
* * * *
Michael sat on
the terrace and stared over the vastness of light, form, and movement,
raising the glass to his mouth in slow automatic rhythm. The city
seemed to hum with electric energy, even when it should have been
long asleep. Office windows here and there shown with the hunger
of late-night ambition, cars crawled along darkened streets, and
the occasional faint but definite blast of music floated upward
in ghost-like echoes, telling him that there were people out there
on the prowl, looking for God-knew-what and probably finding it.
After all, this
was New York.
“God, I
hate this damned place,” he muttered into the night air.
“Then why
the hell are you here, Beaumont?”
Startled, Michael
turned his head and stifled a low laugh. A tall, middle-aged man
wandered through the open French doors of the apartment. “How
did you get in, Gary?”
“Key—from
that trip to France you took last month. I came to return it.”
His visitor held up the object in question.
“Oh yeah,
I forgot. Since you still have it, keep it and take in my mail again
for the next few weeks, will you? You keep the plants alive better
than I do anyway.”
“Do I know
her?”
“It’s
not a her.”
Gary smiled,
a shark-like gleam of white teeth. “I won’t even bother
to ask if it’s a him, more’s the pity. Family thing?”
“Unfortunately.”
Michael couldn’t keep the sour note out of his voice.
“Chicago?”
Gary Rivers dropped into an opposite chair and lifted an elegant
eyebrow. He was wearing khaki knee-length shorts, a navy shirt that
spanned his thin shoulders, and had a heavy gold watch on one wrist.
His blond hair was thinning but still brushed back perfectly from
his broad forehead and his features were regular and unremarkable—until
he spoke. Then something...rare, a spark of humor and undeniable
intelligence lent that bland face all the charm of Cary Grant on
a good day.
Michael shook
his head. “Not Chicago. Michigan.”
“A return
to the rustic family homestead, eh?” Gary indolently lifted
a glass of what looked like scotch to his mouth. The glass was the
finest English crystal. His loafers were slim, soft, very expensive
leather. His legs crossed casually at the bare ankle as he asked,
“I thought you hated the family scene almost as much as you
hate New York.”
Michael admitted
candidly, “Pretty much. But it’s my father’s birthday,
so I don’t have a real choice. I haven’t been up to
the place in about five years. I’m sure the whole ordeal will
be a lesson in the different ways people who are supposed to love
each other achieve nothing but alienation and discord.”
In mock disgust,
Gary shook his head. “Good God, you are jaded. I get so tired
of you tortured artists disliking everything and everyone.”
“Don’t
forget that proverbial thin line between love and hate.” Michael
grinned. “It gets the creative juices flowing.”
Thin brows lifted
and the ice in the scotch glass did a little dance. “Yes,
I heard about the show. Big success. Congratulations.”
“Didn’t
see you there,” Michael commented dryly.
A vague look
of horror crossed Gary’s face. “Dearheart, I hate that
post-modernist shit you paint, you know that. It takes practically
all the courage I have just to walk through your living room. I
find that if I just look straight ahead and don’t glance at
the nightmares hanging on the walls, I’m okay.”
“I was
joking, don’t worry. I didn’t expect you, and in truth,
you didn’t miss much.”
“Now,”
Gary smiled without humor, “if you would do what you’re
really good at, I’d be your biggest fan, first in line with
my checkbook. I have a need to be immortalized for all time.”
“There
isn’t a market for portraits.” The argument was an old
one. Michael regretted often agreeing to paint a portrait of Gary’s
mother. Somehow his friend had got it into his head that Michael
had some sort of genius for reproducing the human form.
“Perfect.
I doubt you need the money.”
His response
was tinged with weariness. “Shit, Gary, you know it isn’t
about money, it never was. If someone decides they are going to
paint for money, then they had better find the nearest building,
put on a pair of coveralls, and pick up a roller. We could have
this argument everyday.”
“We almost
do,” Gary murmured.
Michael gazed
at his empty glass with apathy. He wanted more wine but didn’t
have much enthusiasm for getting up and going inside to get it.
His whole body felt like lead. The next week yawned like the jaws
of hell.
Thirty Birches.
His family.
Cassandra.
Damn.
Getting to his
feet with a resigned sigh, Gary said, “After all these years
as friends and neighbors, I can read you like a map. Your unfairly
handsome face is practically screaming depression. Here, give me
your glass. I’ll get the wine.”
“Thanks.”
Michael transferred the glass to Gary’s hand and moodily contemplated
the lit window of an apartment across the street. Through the blinds,
it appeared the occupant was either doing aerobics or having incredibly
gymnastic sex, bobbing into view again and again. Since Michael
knew the resident was an extremely good-looking young man who worked
at the gym down the street, either scenario seemed possible.
Gary came back
with a full glass of dark ruby liquid, passed it on, and sank back
down as he noticed the direction of Michael’s’ gaze.
His lips quirked as he remarked, “Makes one wonder where he
gets the energy. Too bad I know for a fact he’s straight.”
Considering Michael
felt as if a grain combine had backed over him several times, he
simply lifted a brow.
“I’m
wondering about something else that has nothing to do with our vigorous
neighbor.” Gary thoughtfully clinked the ice in his glass
and looked bland. “Will your ex-girlfriend, slash sister-in-law,
be attending this little Northwoods soiree?”
“Truth
is, I didn’t ask.”
“Hence
the pensive mood?”
Michael stirred
in his chair and felt his face tighten involuntarily. “What
pensive mood? I’m just sitting here, tired as hell and dreading
at least a week of my dysfunctional family’s antics. If that’s
defined as pensive, all right, I’m pensive.”
“Don’t
forget defensive.”
“Gary,
lay off.”
“Hey, that
girl did a number on you once. I just wondered if maybe part of
your avoidance of anything remotely to do with the Beaumont family
hasn’t a great deal to do with her.”
Michael fought
the urge to shift again uncomfortably in his chair. Instead he fastened
his gaze on the winking lights of a jet circling in the velvet night
sky. The air smelled slightly of exhaust tinged with the musky scent
of the potted geraniums scattered around them on the stone terrace.
He muttered darkly, “I thought you were a stockbroker, not
a shrink.”
“My new
hobby.”
“Couldn’t
you have taken up needlepoint or something more appropriate to your
sexual orientation?”
Gary chuckled,
once again crossing his very elegant ankles. “The stereo-typical
insult draws no blood, my friend. Apparently I’m good at this.
I believe I’ve struck a nerve.”
Michael shook
his head. “Don’t pat yourself on the back too soon.
The truth is, I could care less about that greedy little bitch.”
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