EXCERPT:
Love
truth, but pardon error.
—Voltaire
It felt like
he was in a dream. The kind where one moment you fly freeform through
blue skies and white perfect clouds, and the next you have lost
the magic and are plummeting to the earth at screaming, flesh-splattering
velocity—except he didn’t wake up in time to save himself.
Standing in the
glare of a simmering July sun he felt the emergence of nightmare-like
sweat coating his skin. He could taste it bitterly in his mouth
and feel the essence of it seeping under his armpits. Like some
menacing bird, the day had taken wing into the fantastic and the
macabre.
The body was
face down in the dirt. Using his sleeve to wipe his face, he blinked
rapidly, trying to focus. Her perfect profile was towards him—the
delicate arch of her nose superimposed in the powdery dust, the
gentle protrusion of her chin, the sightless, staring eyes. A small
trickle of blood trailed languidly from one nostril, crusting against
the small delicate opening and coiling wetly on the ground.
Dead.
She was undeniably
dead. As much dust as the spot on which she lay.
Ashes to ashes...
He could barely
think. Everything seemed to merge into one long moment of heat,
acrid dust, and stale blood. Fumbling with the reality of the moment,
his mind rejected that stark, limp image in the road even as his
stomach knotted in acknowledgment.
A crow screamed
from a nearby post. Like some outraged shrew, it poured abuse into
the sultry air, the sound painful against the ringing in his ears.
Jolted into action by the sudden noise, he opened and closed his
hands, swallowing hard.
He had to hide
the body. The idea floated to him in a continuation of his nightmare
illusion, a disembodied notion born of panic and necessity. It was
done and now he had to compound his crime by hiding the body.
Bury her deep.
The idea became a silent chant in his brain. Bury her so deep that
no one would ever find her and know the truth.
The awful truth.
Chapter 1
She had been
mugged, right there on Michigan Avenue with hordes of people passing
by and paying absolutely no attention.
Victoria Paulsen
struggled back to her feet and stared at the broken strap of her
purse dangling uselessly from her hand. It had happened so fast.
One minute she was slogging along in the infernal drizzle that had
plagued the city all week and the next she was skidding down on
one knee, her shoulder half-jerked out of its socket as some teenage
kid in a sodden sleeveless shirt and baggy shorts disappeared into
the crowd with her purse.
It was the icing
on a perfectly horrible day.
No one stopped.
She stood, mouth open in protest and affront. People flowed past,
in tailored suits with newspapers on their heads, in skimpy skirts
and cropped tops, in nylon shorts and jogging shoes—uncaring,
hurrying, self-absorbed citizens who huddled under umbrellas and
raincoats and swept right on by.
She hadn’t
even shouted. There had been no time.
A warm stream
of water slowly seeped down her neck. Her knee was bleeding, her
panty hose were torn, and she had lost her driver’s license,
credit cards, and address book. Trembling, she groped at the side
of her raincoat. The metallic lump was a relief. Thank heaven her
keys were in her coat pocket—one blessing among a thousand
curses.
The street smelled
oily, exhaust mingling with gasoline and insistent rain. A well-dressed
man bumped her shoulder and darted away without an apology, waving
for a taxi. Not knowing what else to do, Victoria started walking
again, clutching the broken strap as the one piece of physical evidence
she had to prove the assault.
It took twenty
long, miserable minutes before she was trudging up the steps of
her apartment building. Twenty minutes to reflect on calling the
police and reporting the theft. Not to mention the lost file that
had consumed her morning at the office, her inadequate, expensive
and stone-cold lunch, and a completely unproductive afternoon.
A thumping headache
began to knock at her temples. She’d never had a migraine;
maybe today would round itself out nicely and oblige her with a
first.
Trailing up two
flights of stairs, Victoria tiredly shoved her key into her front
door. A soothing bath and some cold pizza would finish the evening.
Anything else sounded far too exhausting.
She took two
steps inside and knew the nightmare wasn’t over. A faint scent
hung in the air, frightening by its presence where it wasn’t
expected. She stopped dead, arrested by the unfamiliar smell, her
stomach clenching into tight knots.
Her brain raced,
registering more disturbing impressions. God in heaven, it was too
dark, even with the rain. Surely she’d opened the drapes this
morning before she left for work? She simply stood there, frozen
in place, coat dripping, keys dangling, trying to explain to herself
that the scent of aftershave and the persuasive gloom did not necessarily
mean a strange man was in her apartment. Her heart seemed to move
up in her chest, impeding every effort she made to breathe.
“Surprise!”
She jumped a
foot and let out a small cry of alarm.
Lights came on,
illuminating the tiny living room. A man stood by a small table
located where her couch normally sat, his hand on the light switch.
He was of medium height, well-built, with trim brown hair and expertly
tailored dark slacks below an immaculate sport shirt.
“Michael!”
The name exploded forcefully from her lips. Anger and relief replaced
the white-hot knife of fear in her veins. “What the hell are
you doing here?” She stood, knees quaking, willing her breathing
back to normal.
Michael Roberts’
eyebrows shot together as he took in her disheveled appearance,
focusing on her shredded stockings and the trickle of blood on her
leg beneath her short, dark skirt. A welcoming smile faded into
concern. “Making you dinner,” he said slowly. “Surprising
you. What happened?”
“You scared
me half to death, that’s what happened. Is that a new cologne?”
Maybe it was wrong to snap at him, to take the frustrations of the
day out on him, but the words tumbled out. “Why are you off
so early anyway?”
She knew his
schedule very well as they worked at the same office. Of course,
she was just a secretary and he was an attorney.
Still shaking,
Victoria jerked at her soaking raincoat, dropping the lonesome strap
of her purse on the floor.
His face stiffened
slightly, but Michael was not one to let a childish outburst interfere
with his line of questioning. He moved across the room quickly to
take her raincoat, holding it carefully away from his beautiful
trousers. He said evasively, “Your leg is bleeding.”
“Believe
me, I know.”
“Did you
fall?”
“No, I
was pushed.” Victoria felt the squish of sodden leather as
she shifted her weight. One heel—the heel of her new expensive
pumps—wobbled as it separated depressingly from the sole.
She swiped at her wet hair, shoving it off her forehead.
She knew what
she must look like after a sprawl on the sidewalk and blocks and
blocks in the soaking rain. It didn’t help to have Michael
so immaculate and relaxed. Beyond his shoulder, she could see that
he’d taken the liberty of rearranging the furniture to accommodate
a table in the center of the living room. Snowy white linen, candles,
and opulent red roses in a vase met her gaze. There was also the
gleam of crystal that certainly did not belong to her.
“Pushed?”
Michael prodded, forehead wrinkling. He absently shook her coat.
A rain shower littered the floor.
“He stole
my purse.” The memory was infuriating. Her eyes smarted with
unwanted tears. “Grabbed it and pushed me. Hard. I fell. No
one helped me. Not a soul even stopped, Michael.”
“I swear
it, sometimes this city gets to me, it really does. There were no
policemen around either. I guess I’ll have to call from here
and report it. Not that they’ll ever catch him. My license,
credit cards—all gone. Good thing I didn’t have much
cash with me.” She ended in a small sob—the enormity
of the catastrophe overwhelming at that moment. Being wet and injured
and tired did not add up to dealing with feelings of intrusion and
assault.
“Are you
hurt?” Michael’s tone was soothing. It sounded a shade
too professional, his expression just properly concerned. Her coat
had made a small puddle on the linoleum by his feet.
She shook her
head. The ache in her temples had spread and concentrated. God,
what a terrible day! She put a hand to her right temple and rubbed.
Her blouse was clinging gelatinously to her skin, soaked from the
long walk in the rain. Outside, the storm still blundered on, tapping
at the shuttered windows of the living room.
Michael said
calmly, “Good. Tell you what. You go clean up; I’ll
get you a glass of wine. We’ll worry about things like police
and credit cards later, okay?”
“Can I
do that?” she asked doubtfully. “Don’t I have
to report it right away?”
“I’m
a criminal lawyer, sweetheart, remember? I’ll take care of
everything.”
It sounded good.
Michael was that way, even-tempered, practical, infinitely in charge
at all times. The dictatorial air was occasionally too close to
pompous for comfort, but now was not one of those times. The last
thing she wanted was to fill out a police report and hear how futile
it was going to be to try and catch her assailant.
Michael stepped
closer, still mindful of her dripping coat, and touched her chin,
looking into her eyes. The subdued lighting did nice things to the
chiseled line of his nose and softened what could be an uncompromising
mouth. “Go on,” he urged. “Dinner is going to
be delivered at seven-thirty. Chilean Sea Bass from that little
bistro you love downtown. It won’t wait, darling.”
So persuasive.
I should have
known, she thought wryly as she headed for the bedroom to shower
and change, that with Michael the phrase ‘making you dinner’
simply involved making arrangements to have someone else make you
dinner. Still, he had gone to a great deal of trouble. Stopping
short at the door of her bedroom, she suddenly wondered if she knew
why.
Not tonight,
she thought, groaning inwardly. She couldn’t deal with it.
Please...not
tonight.
* * * *
The wine was wonderful. The fish was superb, the ambiance very carefully
orchestrated. Into the background faded the purse-snatcher, the
screeching paralegal actually responsible for the missing file,
the warm, dark droplets flooding the skies. As incessantly as her
woes had built up during the day, Victoria felt them bow diffidently
away.
Only to be replaced
with a new anxiety to gnaw at her nerves.
“Still
dwelling on the purse thing?”
She jerked out
of her abstraction. “Sorry. No...no. I’m not. I was
just thinking about something else.” Her fingers curled around
her wine glass and she took a quick, guilty sip.
Leaning back
in his chair, Michael studied her face with an intensity that made
her want to squirm. “Well, then, to us.” He lifted a
glass of white burgundy with a light flourish as understated as
his choice of wine for dinner.
“Us.”
How could she not agree? Her glass went up.
“The future.”
He held her gaze.
“Yes.”
Her voice sounded hollow.
She cleared her
throat. Her fingers were damp from the moisture on her glass and
a sudden onslaught of nervous tension. The fish in her stomach seemed
to be jostling for position with a load of butterflies.
Michael carefully
set down his glass and reached into his pocket. By now, the tiny
velvet box he produced was no surprise. Nor was the theatrical way
he tugged at the leg of his pants to allow him to slide to one knee
by the side of the table.
Panic flared,
sending heat into Victoria’s face.
He reached for
her hand. Oh, Lord, what am I going to say?
The telephone
chose that moment to begin to ring.
Saved by the
bell...
“Ignore
it,” Michael ordered. His fingers tightened on hers. “Darling…I
think you know how I—”
The telephone
pealed again. Michael grimaced, manfully conquering his disgust
at the destruction of his grand moment by trying to raise his voice.
“You know
how I feel about you. I’ve been doing nothing but—”
The machine clicked
loudly and picked up the call. A new voice replaced Michael’s,
booming into the apartment with all the force born of genuine anger,
not waiting for her recorded request to leave a message. “Victoria,
pick up the phone! Pick it up. I want to talk to Emily.”
Michael’s
mouth tightened in true annoyance.
The voice went
on. “Pick up now! Please, Vicky...or Emily, honey, pick up.”
Victoria’s
gaze swiveled away from Michael’s face momentarily to where
the telephone sat on an antique table in the nearby hallway by the
front door. She bit her lip. The machine clicked again, cutting
off any more importunate demands. She said hesitantly, “That
was Ronald.”
“Is that
so? Who the hell is Ronald?”
“Actually,
he’s—”
“No, wait,
I don’t care about Ronald.” Michael took a steadying
breath, retaining his supplicant pose, his grip on her hand. “Tell
me later about Ronald. Can I continue?”
The phone started
to ring again.
“Shit,”
he muttered blackly.
Victoria raised
her shoulders apologetically, easing her hand out of his grip. “He’s
like this. If he really thinks Emily is here, and it sounds like
he does, he’ll just keep calling. I’d better just answer
it.”
“By all
means,” Michael said, shoving the box unopened back into his
pocket and standing up stiffly to let her go past him.
Victoria ran
to the phone, picking it up just before the machine went back into
action. ‘Saved by the bell’ was only too appropriate
a phrase. She could only hope her face hadn’t registered any
of her relief. Michael was no idiot and reading people was a good
deal of his job.
“Hello?”
“Vicky,
is that you?” Heavy breathing whistled down the line, a symptom
of the agitation that had caused such persistence. “I knew
you were there. Just let me talk to Emily.”
“Emily
isn’t here.”
“Bullshit.”
Intensely aware
of Michael sitting back down as he listened to her end of the conversation,
Victoria spoke carefully, “Why would she be here, Ron? What’s
happened?”
“Nothing!”
The reply was a shout, not at all surprising since she knew her
brother-in-law so well. Ronald was fond of shouting. For that matter,
her sister was fairly fond of making him shout. He and Emily had
fights that sent echoes into space.
Silence.
More breathing.
“I haven’t
heard from her lately,” Victoria settled on saying. “Not
since April when she was here. You probably know we had a disagreement.”
That statement was a short version of the hard truth.
“Then where
is she?”
“You aren’t
listening. I wouldn’t know.” Victoria plucked at the
hem of her dress. Glass clinked against crystal behind her. Michael
was supplementing his glass of wine. “How long has she been
gone?”
“Three
days.”
“Three
days!”
“Yes.”
It was a short answer—a snapping of the jaws. He still was
breathing loudly, whistling against the receiver like a thin wind.
Victoria frowned,
her hand going still. “You had a fight.” It was a declaration,
not a question. She knew her sister. She knew Ronald. And Emily
had left him before. True, it had been years ago, but she had twice
decamped furiously, and for a while the family thought the marriage
was over.
“I’m
telling you there was no fight. She left for work Monday morning
and just never came home. Gail is having a fit, as if the whole
thing is my damned fault.” He sounded more aggrieved than
worried.
Gail Benedict,
Emily’s partner in an interior design business, might well
be entitled to her fit. While Emily created brilliant rooms of style
and color, Gail ran the financial end of their enterprise. She was
the rudder steering a wild creative ship. Without her tempestuous
and stormy designer, Gail had no business.
“What about
Dad? Or Mom? Surely she’s called the farm?” It was a
weary question. If it wasn’t for the rift in April, Victoria
would have been more worried. Emily had run, but not to her—simple
as that. She was somewhere else, crying on someone else’s
shoulder.
“No one
has seen her or heard anything.”
“Odd.”
“Odd? Is
that all you have to say?” Ronald demanded. “Are you
sure you aren’t lying, Vicky? She could always talk you into
anything. Please...I’m serious here. I need to talk to her.”
“I’m
not lying. Maybe you should call the police, Ronald.”
The line went
dead—no good-bye, no apologies. Leave it to Emily, Victoria
thought with jaded amusement, to intrude on one of the most important
moments in my life. Emily had always taken center stage without
remorse.
Turning around,
she saw that Michael was polishing off the rest of the wine, his
glass tipped to his mouth. Who could blame him?
He had also worked
a few things out.
“Ronald.
Ronald Sims. Your brother-in-law, the famous artist?” he said
pleasantly enough. “Married to your sister, Emily. The twin.”
“Yes.”
Victoria came back to her seat, feeling guilty. There was a sip
or two left in her glass, which was a relief. Drinking it gave her
something to do.
“The next
time you talk to him, tell him he has crappy timing.” It was
only half a joke.
“I will.”
“So where
do you think she is?” Michael, never slow, had not just been
drinking wine while she talked. He’d been listening closely.
And he seemed disinclined to go back to his knees. There was a betraying
tightness around his mouth that belied the casual tone. He was annoyed.
“Emily?
Hard to say. She’s always been a bit unpredictable.”
Victoria fingered her empty glass, glancing up from under her eyelashes.
“Michael, I’m so sorry...I just knew that Ronald would
keep on calling and calling—”
He interrupted
shortly, “You don’t seem worried. Three days is a long
time.”
So, she thought
with resignation, he is going to pout. She felt more relief, tinged
with more guilt.
“She’s
staying with a friend, I’m sure of that. Em has the unique
ability to convince sane people to do things against their better
judgment—such as lying to Ronald. I adore her, but she can
be...exhausting. She’s just that way—emotional, thoughtless,
but also very charming. You should meet her. People just fall at
her feet.”
Outside, the
rain had finally stopped. She could hear the swooshing of tires
on the wet pavement and the faint sound of sirens headed to some
disaster.
Disaster. Emily.
She felt a faint tremor, quickly squelched. Three days was a long
time. Even for Emily.
“You don’t
sound much alike,” Michael commented.
Her smile was
unwilling, a glimmer. “Thanks a lot.”
“I simply
meant she sounds flighty and insubstantial. Not like you at all,
Victoria. You go the other way, my dear.” His tone was deliberate,
a bit sardonic. “Your curse is that you over-think things.
Over-complicate them. Not everything can be a certainty in life.
You have to take a chance or two.”
A pause. Awkward.
She felt the childish urge to chew on her fingernails.
He added blandly,
“It isn’t like we’ve rushed things—quite
the opposite. We’ve dated for some time now.”
So he had known.
Sensed her apprehension, felt all the churning uncertainty. Damn,
lawyers were hard to fool.
She shook her
head and tried desperately to think of what to say. I want to say
yes, Michael. I want the ring, the wedding, the life we both imagine.
I’m just not sure you’re the one. That would hardly
do.
Michael solved
her dilemma. “Maybe next week, we’ll have dinner again,”
he murmured. “I have this wonderful French Cab I found a few
months ago. Is it a date?” His gaze was direct. His expression
said that he was willing to wait, but not forever. Another week
was plenty of grace.
A week. Time
to think. That’s what she needed, wasn’t it—just
a little time.
“Yes,”
she murmured in a stammer. Dipping her head, she skimmed the edge
of the tablecloth with her finger.
“Victoria?”
Michael smiled finally, relaxing his shoulders against the back
of his chair.
“What?”
“Next week…unplug
the phone, will you?”
She smothered
a nervous laugh with the back of her hand.
* * * *
Mitchell Williams leaned back in his black leather chair, ignoring
the protesting groan of the springs. He wore out more chairs that
way—tilting them backwards beyond their capacity to bend.
He did it out of habit; and of his habits, it seemed the least offensive
to bother exerting effort to cure.
“Cigarette?”
He eyed the young woman across, opening the gold case on his desk.
When she shook her head, he studied her face for signs of overt
disapproval, and seeing nothing but polite attention, lit one for
himself.
“You wanted
to talk to me?” he asked genially. The request had been a
little surprising.
Michael Roberts
had made it quite plain that an engagement was in the works, so
if Victoria Paulsen had a problem, it seemed logical that she would
go to Michael, or even her future father-in-law, John, who was a
partner in the firm.
“I’d
like to take a leave of absence.” Victoria Paulsen made the
announcement quietly, crossing one slim leg carefully over the other
and unobtrusively tugging at her short navy skirt. “Mrs. Byrnes
is my supervisor. She said I had to clear it through you or one
of the other partners.”
Mitchell did
admire the way Mrs. Byrnes did her job. The Paulsen girl was a part-time
secretary, but Byrnes made no exception to the rules, not even for
a student who barely worked fifteen hours a week. Not even for someone
who might someday be married to the son of a partner. Good for her.
Byrnes was quite a stickler.
Again, the question,
why not go to Michael or John?
Mitchell nodded,
narrowing his eyes against the smoke. “That’s our policy,
certainly. Is there some sort of problem?”
“Family
problem.”
Her eyes, an
unusual shade somewhere between blue and green, gazed past him toward
the window. Lovely eyes, Mitchell thought absently, drawing smoke
into his lungs with an almost sexual enjoyment, and the rest of
her not bad either. Not bad at all. Michael is a bright young man.
“I see.
How many hours a week do you work?”
“Fifteen—sometimes
only ten. I go to Northwestern. Journalism.”
“Hmmm.
I’m sure we can work something out. When will you be back?”
The beautiful
eyes swiveled back toward his face, then her gaze dropped. “I
don’t know. I can’t actually say how long I’ll
need.” A small swallow twitched the muscles of her throat.
“I was hoping to leave immediately.”
Thirty-plus years
of practicing law gave Mitchell Williams the ability to recognize
true distress, to sort it from the playacting and the hype. “Does
this have anything to do with Michael?” he asked bluntly,
not wanting to mince words. Lord, that was all they needed, some
sort of argument between a part-time secretary and one of their
top lawyers. A sexual harassment suit would be a financial nightmare
for the firm. The cigarette made an automatic arc to his mouth.
Surprise made
her face blank for the split second before she grasped his inference.
“No, sir.” Color began a slow climb upward from her
neck, staining her cheekbones with reddish blotches. “This
has nothing to do with Michael. In fact, I came to you in order
to keep him and his father out of this. I’d like to think
that no one here could say I was shown any specific preference.”
That was a distinct
relief, but he didn’t show it. “I’m sure,”
his smile was condescending, “that no one thinks you get special
treatment. I hope nothing is seriously wrong?”
There was a palatable
hesitation before she answered, “My sister has disappeared.”
“Really?”
She gave another
self-conscious tug on her skirt. “Her husband called me three
days ago. At first we thought maybe she’d left him but it’s
been nearly a week now and no word. My family is beginning to get
frantic.”
“I imagine.”
A brief smile,
one that seemed tinged liberally with irony, touched her mouth.
“I have no idea why they think I need to be there, but they
have asked me to come home.”
Mitchell’s
chair creaked. “Never underestimate the value of moral support,
Miss Paulsen.”
“No, sir.”
His cigarette
was finished, the stump going to its death in the ashtray on the
desk. Regretfully he exhaled the last of the smoke.
“Take the
time you need,” he offered
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